There are little things that i dont want to miss, that i tuck away for save keeping in my memory bank. Little smiles that are given when ever Oakley looks at me. The way his fingers press into my body when he nurses. How soft his little mouth is. The bright and sweet nasally voice of Clover saying "I love you". How it warms my heart to know she says it to Jul, often first. Watching how eager Jul is to please everyone... how he loves deeper than i could have ever hoped from a child. He is so in tune with peoples emotions and reaction. How the two older ones adore their baby so much. And even though i dont get much sleep right now, all these little moments help me remember that it is well worth it.